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today I talk to stranger since I have no one to talk
he is from India, it is the only information that I know
we don't talk much, he don't flirt like random guys you met in omegle
I tell him about my boyfriend and my dissapointment
then, I asked him " which one do you choose, the girl that you know for a long time but she is far away or the girl you just met but she is near, and both of them love you"
He answered "the one I know for long"
I replied "even if you can't reach her if you need?"
You know what he answered?
"If she loves me there should be a way to reach her"

damn it, a second later I get something on my mind
if I'm not find a way to reach him, does it mean he doesn't love me back?
so what's the point to keep him for almost 4 years but I can't reach him
you know, what's so funny about him when he said he did not have to ask me for hangout
I must ask him first because everyone did it as well
what a wonderful statement, honey
what if I ask you to leave me first?

well, I get what you want to say
you just want to say that I'm free to ask him to go
but I'm so fed up with rejection
thanks for the past, dude
it makes me learn so much
I do like what you do
you learn for experience, right? so do I
thanks for reject me most of the time
no one can do it but you did it perfectly